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I just want to smile
Yours truly.


This is Ray/Richard
Currently studying in HKSS, class 4A
Arrived at this prodigious world on 2nd May, 1993
Im a taurus
Currently single, and available.
Although faced with many adversities,
I struggled to survive all.
And I believe, if I want, I can.
I can't make you love me,
but please don't hate me.



Jukebox.


MusicPlaylist
Music Playlist at MixPod.com


Wishes

-L1R4 10 points, L1R5 12 points.
-Im contended at the moment ;)

Communication.



Plurkkk!

Plurk.com

Darlinks.

^2fam Clique
Fen Fang, (Fen)^2
Hui hui, (Hui)^2
Kelvin, (vin)^2
Rebecca, (bear)^2
Serene, (rene)^2
Sherlyn(private), (lyn)^2
Sherlyn, (lyn)^2
Yi lin, (lin)^2

WHATever clique
Alex
Annabelle
Desmond
Ferdy
Jaslin
Jason
Jermin
JieYi
Kelvin
Reen
Whatever

Beloved pals
Adibah (NPAP'09)
Ai Jing
Alisa (NPAP'09)
Amanda (NPAP'09)
Azlizah (NPAP'09)
Beiling
Cherie
Christine(habbo)
Cussie Kelvin
Fadhilah
Felicia
Helmi (NPAP'09)
Jayne
Jing yuan
Joan
Jocelyn
Jummy(habbo)
Khoirul (NPAP'09)
Murphi
Ru cui; Esther(habbo)
Saifuddin (NPAP'09)
Sandra
Shanice
Shu fei
Siying
Steph
Syafiqah
Tingting
Vanessa(habbo)
Wendolyn
Xinyi
Xuelin
Yi Wen
Yi yin
Yi yue
Yong hao
Yusuff

If your link is missing, do tell me =)
Inactive links will be removed (sorry)

Memoirs

July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
November 2008
December 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
April 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
August 2009
September 2009
October 2009
November 2009


Friday, July 31, 2009

TGIF!
Oh mannn! Thanks god its friday! ;)
Finally get to catch my breath after a week of school-ing. This week had been especially tough for me, due to certain reason which I shall not disclose.
Took our SS result today. 20/25 for SEQ. Not too bad! ;D
Then had my a-maths test today... it sucks to the core. We have it in the library, and my mind is like a whirlpool, in a mess. The questions were pretty challenging. Just hope I can pass, dont really pin any hope in scoring well. ;(
Sat tomorrow! I need a break. Seriously. Anyone 'jio-ing' me out? LOL!

4:44 PM


Thursday, July 30, 2009

DPA Diploma in Media and Communication interview today!
Today is an awesome day!
Finally went for my DPA interview for Media and Communication! Woah, I felt totally defeated after the interview! The other 7 peeps is totalllyyyy bombastic and awesome! I had no chance against them ;) But its okay, i'll still get to see them in DMC next year by using my JAE right? HAHA :D
So yup! Today went to SP and had a hard time finding my way to block 19.
Our written exam starts at 3. It's tough mannnzxc! We were given 3 questions.
First, write about an article you have read recently and why it left an impression on you?
Second, write about why you are interested in this course?
Third, Give one reason why we you are the most suitable candidate for DMC.

The questions were challenging! There are word limit to it, and i guess every one of us exceed the limit, especially me, I exceed by twice the limit! LOL ;X heck care ;)
Then we were split into groups of 3 or 2. Im the batch 2, and i'm with siying and adele! So yeah, we chilled at the canteen first, chatting away! They are friendly people ;) The first batch seems to have a lot to say... interview suppose to be half an hour but they took 1 hour!
Then it's our time. We entered the room, and i'm feeling soooo nervous that my cheeks were BURNING!
The questions they asked were very tricky. They like to compare about SP and NP, and even ask question like if NP and SP both selected you, which will you choose? Its super hard to answer and I felt that i'm sandwiched in between, stuck, don't know how to answer them, and I have to be a little.. hypocrite. ;D
Didn't do too well I guess, but I started to relax a little after a few mins. The lecturer don't seem too nasty, thats why.
And the lecturer told us, even if we got in through DPA, we also need to score 12 points... if not we can't enter DMC.. Darn!

So yesss, I wish that ALL of us can get in.. which is impossible. So the 7 of you! All the best alright? ;) You guys were really AWESOME and FANTASTIC! ;D Had fun chatting with you all!
And those who going for Mass Comm interview at NP tmr, MUST DO YOUR VERY BEST ALRIGHT? ;D
Ciaooo!

10:34 PM


Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Disappointment in life...
Sigh, just when I thought things were improving, here comes disappointment.
Recently, have been stretched to the limit, stress over many issues, but mainly studies. I just felt like giving up sometimes, but I couldn't. I'm officially deprived for some rest...
A-maths result was a huge disappointment. Studied intensively for it yet only scored a mere 26/40.
Yesterday, had a break-down during a-maths tuition. I got no idea too, but just felt like giving it all up suddenly. I just sat there, stare into spaces and be oblivious to my surrounding.
This week is tough man, so many upcoming tests. SS, A-maths and Chem...
Life is forever so arduous... but oh well, what choices do I have?

On a happier note... I received a call from SP on Monday! They asked me to for a WRITTEN exam and interview on Thursday for the course Media and Communication! Let's hope that I will be able to shine out more among the other 7 candidates... and oh! I heard that only 2 will be finalised and given a spot in the course. Regardless of what, i'll be giving my best shot.

Lastly... HAPPY BIRTHDAY, NG HUIHUI! you're 16 now... so BE MATUREEE! ;)

12:32 PM


Monday, July 27, 2009

Wedding reception of Sivam's sister!
What a BLAST yesterday! The 7 princesses looks fabulous in their dress!
Thank you to Sivam, for inviting us to her sister's wedding reception! I totally enjoyed myself to the max! Totally indulge into the fun... and taking photos ;)
Yesterday, meet up with ai jing, huihui, yingying, yi wen, yiyue and jayne at JP. We were choosing a present for them, and bought a extremely nice and romantic clock (okay.. not really auspicious to give a clock, but i dont think they care about it in their religion ;D). So yeah~ travelled to Little India and meet Mabel there. We were like looking around for the restaurant and finally found it after a 10 mins walk!
I tell you, the place where they have their wedding reception is NICE! Although it's not some lavish and posh hotel, but the restaurant is really cool.
So we were like seated there, chatting away and thats when the bride and the bridegroom marched in smartly! They were gorgeous and handsome!
We then had our buffet-style dinner. Surprisingly... Indian food is NICEEE and DELICIOUSSS! The curry, and the fish... Amazing! We even wanted to go back to that restaurant next time cos the food is too nice!
Spent the rest of our time after dinner on snapping photos~
And we were like lunatics, laughing away! Especially when we were on our way back. The train is basically flooded with our laughters... and I wonder what do the other commuters think of us.. ;X It's definitely a day which I had laughed so hard that tears trickled down my face! ROFL!
Alright, let the pictures do the talking!
And my zilian skill sucks, as stated by Mabel. ;D


Backview of 3 chio bus ;D


On the train!


Yiyue and jayne! Gorgeous ;D


Yiwen and Huihui! Pretttty~


yingying and yiwen! Fab-looking~


While figuring our way there...


And there is Mabel~


Congrats to the newly-wed!


While waiting for the bride and bridegroom...


Shining Sivam in her outfit!


Sivam and me~


Our table ;D


Me and yiyue~


Here comes the newly-wed!


Another shot~


Cutting the cake!


The girls wanted to steal the wine? LOL


Group photo!


Another group photo~


me, jayne, sivam and yingying~


Yiyue, yiwen, mabel, aijing.


Aww i love this, so sweeeet~


Ying and me!


Wassup Thendral!


Mabel and me! Oh man im perspiring. LOL


Ai jing and jayne! Unglam hur?


taken on the staircase ;D


Yiwen and me~


Reflection!


Huihui and me~


Jayne and me!


Scary? hehe!

Phew~ finally done with the photos! "Enjoy"! LOL!

7:21 PM



Huihui's advance birthday celebration!
Hello!
On saturday, we had a advance celebration for huihui's birthday, which is actually on this wednesday, but we celebrated early!
It's quite a big screw up... seriously. So yeah, huihui hope you don't mind alright! So sorry about it! Our actual plan was to go marina square at 3pm, then we will go for bowling or pool. Then we will have our dinner, and watch the firework. But things didn't turn out as well. When we meet up at 3pm, we wanted to go for bowling, but the waiting list was very very full... And we couldn't play pool, cos its pretty strict at marina square and there's quite a few underage peeps. As for kbox, it isn't worth it if we go in at that time, and it's quite a waste of money. It isn't fun too. We were basically WALKING AROUND aimlessly...
The people who went at that point of time were only huihui, kelvin, xinyi, kenneth and me. Out of desperation, we went to Clementi to go Partyworld KTV, but things didn't went out well, cos of time constraint and not all wanted to sing. We ended up playing 2 games of bowling. Xinyi left after the first game. So yeah, luckily things turns for the better after our bowling. We finally had a destination in mind, cos ai jing and her clique had already reached marina square, to watch firework. So we went back to marina square again....
Went for our dinner and rush over to esplanade to meet up with ai jing and peeps. Oh well, the fireworks suddenly -BOOM- and we gave up looking for ai jing as we took photos of the beautiful moments. Darn my stupid phone.. it's so slow in taking photos that I didnt even get much shots of the extraordinary fireworks! So yeah, met up with ai jing they all after that and we went back to marina square to shop and chill. Spent our time laughing around until around 10pm and we went home.
It's really a big screw up if ai jing and her clique didn't turn up...
I'm super disappointed in my planning skills. Sigh.
Nevertheless, enjoy the photos!


Kelvin and Kenneth at the bowling alley!


Kenneth, kelvin and hui!


Kelvin and me!


Da birthday girl and me~


My dinner! Yummy-licious~


Sms-ing while eating hur? Sms-ing bf? LOL!


kelvin~


kenneth!


Fireworks! Pretty right?


The stage outside esplanade


Fireworks!


Another shot~


Kelvin, hui and me~


Huihui! and we say she looks like a superstar. ;)


Reflection~ ;D


"Buay song" face. LOL!


While they are busy helping ai jing wear her shoe... ying smiled at me! LOL


Kelvin and me!


Me and hui.. with kelvin popping up behind ;)


Shyshy ai jing. :D

Alright! Bye~

6:52 PM


Wednesday, July 22, 2009

A-maths test tomorrow...
Im so petrified now.
Tomorrow is A-math test again. This time, on chapter 4-6, which happens to be my weakest portion of a-math. Last week we had a a-math test on chapter 1-3. I failed. Was completely dejected and crestfallen. I felt super stupid, as if im some imbecile. So many people passed, but I fail, and it's like, I have studied so hard for it...
I really don't wish to fail tomorrow's a-math test again... No! I can't afford to fail!

9:08 PM



O Level Chinese listening compre is DEADLY!
Ohhh mannn!
Had my last paper for chinese O level. That is... listening compre!
Thought it'll be easy, but it didn't turn out too well for me. We were dismissed at 1, and we must report back to classroom at 2.30pm. So yeah, ate my lunch at canteen and went out to buy a magical drink that can calm my nerves... MILK TEA! ;D
And the time arrives... 2.30pm. The invigilator from other schools came to our classroom and began doing those admin work.
The nightmare comes... from 2.30pm to 3.00pm, we were tuning in to a radio station as our listening compre passage will be played from that station. The radio station, is the station that plays CLASSICAL musics. Piano, violin, relaxing musics. FREAK SIA! I felt droopy and fell asleep for a little while. Luckily I managed to get back to my sense before 3.00pm. ;X
So at 3, the radio player played the O level listening compre passage. HECK! Im spoilt for choices! In a bad way. Cos for most of the questions, there are like 2 answers that seems to be correct, so had no choice but to choose 1 that I think is the best answer. Didn't do too well, I guess. The passage was hard, options were even more difficult...
I detest listening compre!

6:55 PM


Sunday, July 19, 2009

Boring weekend~
Boring weekend this week!
Saturday didn't do any homework, I needed a break. Went to play LAN in the afternoon with xinyi and bernice at Clementi. L4d for 1 and a half hour, then audition-ed for the remaining half an hour. Dinner at subway. Went home. Realised that parents not at home, and I didn't bring my keys. So waited for more than 1 hour before my parent came back. Dunno what the fcuk happened to their phone also... I keep calling but it can't connect. I even tried to call my friends to check if its my phone's fault or what. Darn.
LOL. Even I feel bored when I tried to think what interesting stuff I did during the weekend. ;(
Im like, in a gaming mood. Addicted to audition, and left4dead is pretty fun... eradicating zombies. Downloaded this new game call Freestyle, which is basically a street basketball 3-on-3 multiplayer game. Graphic isn't impressing, but its the only basketball game that is multiplayer.
Today, went for tuition as usual. Did Kinematics, with the particles running around.. Yucks. Then went home and... and... rot.
Tomorrow will be getting back my a-maths test and history test. Didn't have any hope for these 2 tests. Righttt im getting real bored... Ciao!
P.s I think I need some pictures in my blog.. it's getting all words from my recent posts!

4:06 PM



Disappointment in Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince
Hiiiii!
Watched the movie Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince on Friday, after advance booking the tickets online. Little did I know that... the movie is a hugeeee disappointment! Goshhh~
Went to JP first to meet up with huihui and the rest of the peeps for a short while. Then me and huihui went to arcade for about 10 mins and walked to Mrt station. Traveled to Clementi and reached at 5.45, which was the meeting time. Xinyi then came, followed by Felicia. Then kelvin did not come to the first cabin, so we just boarded and meet up with him at the outram mrt station as we transfer over to purple line ;) Then went to harbour front and walked to GV. Met kenneth there. Bought popcorn and drinks and we were seated in Hall 9.
The advertisement were pretty long and i'm waiting excitedly and anticipating the start of the movie! I had watched all the harry potter movie, and i'm a bigggg fan of harry potter.
When the movie starts, I was pretty excited. So yeah, i'll not be a spoiler and type out everything about the movie. The front part was basically a lot of information and stuffs, talking about tom riddle etc. Then the whole movie was pretty dry, and the action isn't very satisfying too. The movie then ended abruptly. It's like, the climax was building up, and then it ended, with the quest for the Horcruxes hanging halfway. Oh well... And there's one funny incident. During the movie, there's this part which no one is talking, the movie is silent, everything is completely silence, and then one person suddenly yawwwnnn loudly! LOL! It sures how uninteresting the movie is... Even a harry potter fan like me nearly dozed off. I guess the only part that I find it to be nice will be the Ron's "girlfriend". Hehe. She's super desperate! LOL!
So yeah, left the cinema feeling sore and disappointed cos of the lengthy and boring movie ;X Its the worse episodes among all the harry potter series. Yucks~
After the movie, we were actually planning to have our dinner, but majority of us wasn't feeling hungry and we started walking around. Actually wanted to window shop, but we were walking aimlessly, so in the end, we went to the sky garden at the top and yeah, chill for a while, enjoying the breeze. By 10.30pm, each of us then go our separate ways. So I took bus 188 with kelvin and travelled home.

Yeppp! Despite saying that the movie sucks, I would still recommend harry potter fans to go and catch it, because I feel that it's a appetizer and a build-up to the last movie, deathly hallow. Although boring, but still recommended to go and watch it. Okayyy bye! ;)

3:46 PM


Tuesday, July 14, 2009

Hysterical Laughter
I laughed today.
Big deal! You may think..
But it's really a extensive period of time ever since I can have a hearty laugh like that. I don't know, Jayne and yingying is mad today after school when we were in canteen, about to do our maths paper. Jayne were like the one that started the laughter, and yingying joined. As for me, I don't know. I started giggling, and then burst into hysterical laughter too. The funniest part is, it isn't funny, yet I laughed cos Jayne laughed. ROFL! So yeah, laughed till my tears rolled down my cheek, and my stomach hurts so much ;D. Then when we were about to go JE, we were near the bubble tea shop whereby jayne suddenly screamed because yingying nearly stepped on a puddle of melted ice-cream. We laughed again. Crazy people. Only yiwen and yiyue managed to remain composed and not laugh like a lunatic. But to me, it's good, really good. Felt that the stress escaped together with the uproar laughter ;D

Alright, school's normal today. Had history test. The length of the essay seems decent, but I know that the quality definitely isn't there.
And today is a maths day. Had 2 hours of maths lesson in class, did maths paper after school, and another 2 hour of a-maths tuition in the evening. Arduous and brain-exhausting, but I love it. At least, it made me feel secured that I am doing practise. :)

Another interesting incident. Today, my dad received a letter in the mailbox. It's a SCAM letter! Oh man! The letter "claimed" that my dad got chosen in a 200k grand draw, and he'll received another yellow envelope in a few days time. There's gonna be car coming to fetch him to a hotel and stuffs like that. Somehow, the scam company actually made use of UOB's logo as a way to fool people. Luckily we ain't a dolt. But I gotta admit, this is the most realistic scam that I had even seen. It's really a letter that looks like the official ones, but still, we managed to detect the scam. So people, watch out! Scammers have gone much more creative and are out there to get cha~ ;D

Signing offf~ byebye!

11:01 PM


Monday, July 13, 2009

O'Monday...
Monday, the start of a brand new week. What lies in front of me? No one knows...
Monday started off great actually.
Lessons were pretty alright. Still able to manage and catch up with lessons without any serious problems.
Gotten back a-maths and e-maths test result.
Obatined 30/40 for a-maths. Im elated. I somehow expected me to do badly, but little did I know that I got the questions correct, and the 10 marks that I lost were all careless mistakes... ;(
E-maths, wasn't badly done either. 68/80. Satisfied.
History was a little disappointing tho. Essay only gotten 8/12. Shall work harder.
Overall, a pretty nice day today. School is starting to rock, O level is even more exciting and thrilling. 3 more months to go. Here I come...
Gonna study for history test tomorrow. Ciaos~

9:35 PM


Sunday, July 12, 2009

Sometimes, its hard to decide...
As stated, sometimes it's realllllyyy intricate to decide.
Im in a dilemma. As much as I would like to enter into a JC, I'm worried about not passing the A level examination. Yesterday, was like, really thinking through it, and my decision is even tougher especially after the Poly Experience as it really attracted me to poly's lifestyle and courses. Now what? Im stuck in between. Wanted to go JC, but worried that I cannot manage the stress in JC. Loves to enter poly, but not sure if my future will be bright with just a diploma.
I really don't know. O level is already nearing as the clock ticks, and I need to have a distinct aim and goal to work towards and not lingering aimlessly.
When I went to NP last friday, the year 2 facilitator was like telling me, the pure sciences in secondary school is only like, 30% of JC's topics. There's still the remaining 70% which is definitely much tougher and deeper in depth. Also, he told me that if I take combined humans, its not advisable to take arts stream, cos there is really a huge gap between combined humans and h2 humans in JC.
Oh well, looks like I might be going to poly next year, and I just have to say good-bye to JC T_T Gosh, can anyone enlighten me? ;X

Anyway, today on the way to tuition... I saw something funny... ;X


There's this advertisement pasted to the pillar near a bus stop, "attracting" people to sign up for their tuition lesson. And look, how wonderful their english is ;D And im not the one who did the correction, somebody eles did. LOL! So many errors!

And this is a photo of how stress I get in tuition ;X


Haha ;X
Okay, byebye ;)

3:53 PM



Poly Experience!
Hello!
Sorry for not blogging for the past 5 days! was either busy, lazy, or nothing important in my life to blog about. Teehee!
But, on Friday, went to the Poly Experience thingy at Ngee Ann Poly. All I can say is, ITS A BLAST! Totally enjoyed myself to the max ;D
After dismissed from sch at 12.30pm, rushed home to bath and get changed, and took bus 61 to NP. I though I was late (okay, indeed I was late, reach at 2.10pm, but initial meeting time is 2pm), but little did I know that the rest arrived later. Phew~ LOL! ;X
Then we went to register at the convention hall and waited for a few more peeps to arrive. The rest of them joined either business, engineering or life science, and i'm the only one who joined the tour for Media&Humanities. Luckily, syafiqah, atiqah, amani, nisa and shao yi were also coming for the Media&humans, so at least im not alone ;D
We were then seated in the convention hall, with a series of fabulous performance. The batucada were amazing, cheerleading performance left me awe-struck with their stunts. Then we had 2 speakers (were they lecturers?) and they were around the audience seat and we will be captured on the screen if we're unlucky ;X Haha. Yup, they talked about NP's life and the Direct Poly Admission (DPA) thingy. We then have the last performance by the dance group, which were equally fantastic and they were all in sync with one another!
Then the fun begins! The friendly facilitators from NP brought us to the FMS block and we were splitted into different groups (too many people luh!)
So yeah, we were super crazy, laughing hysterically and people were like thinking if we were off in our mind or what. ROFL! Im glad we didn't get thrown out. LOL!
So our first venue is at level 9, whereby we went to a small room and the lecturer were giving some quiz on music. Then, he requested for 2 volunteers, 1 guy and 1 girl. Yup, there is this girl call Fadhilah who volunteered, as for the guys... i'm choosen. ;X
It's kinda embarrassing, we were given a script and then we must enter a some sort of recording studio and wear the headphone. There's like a mic in front of each of us and we have to read out the advertisement on the script. It's very weird, cos I can see the rest of them at the other room, staring at us! So pai seh lah! LOL! So yeah, had a trial run, and then a actual one which they recorded it down. So when we went back to the room, we listened to the replay of our recording. LOL my face blushed, cos I was really mortified, you know, hearing ur own voice and acting hyper in the recording ;X And Fadhilah were really great, she's a awesome speaker ;D
The next station is a place which was about story telling, and its fun cos there's this 2 person out there acting out a scene and we must guess the plot of their act. Pretty great! Then we went to the school of Humanities and we were brought to a classroom whereby the lecturers played some ice breaker game as well as teaching us some pronounciation. We were then given many different words and must group them according to the phonetics. Although we didn't win, but it was interesting ;D
Thats the end of our tour, and I had also registered to the Red Camp! Hope that I can be given a place in the red camp as seats are limited! ;D
All I can say is, it's an extremely fun and whacky day! LOL cos we were basically jokers who joke throughout ;X AND NISA & SYAF WERE LIKE KEEP CALLING ME FAMOUS -.- LOL! Hilarious! ;D
Oh, pretty sorry I didnt took much photo... cos I was laughing too much and did not remembered to snap photos in the process of our tour. ;(
But nevertheless, I still have a few photos on my side~


Yingying, yong hao, yi yue, ai jing, huihui ;D


Say cheeeese~ *sorry for bad photo quality!*


Another shot~ with me in it ;D


Batucada performance!


Fabulous cheerleading!


Dont fall... ;X


NRA! The Dance group ;D


Mass dance? lol.


Class room at school of Humanities


Atiqah, nisa, amani, with the facilitator ;D

Thats all for photos ;D
And oh, I applied for DPA already, after sooo many tries, cos I keep exceeding the word limit. ;D Hope that everyone who applied can successfully pass the DPA and secured a seat in the course of your choice! Good luck! ;D
Bye~

3:18 PM


Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Its only... 3 + more months to O level?!

-Flip through calendar-
7 July is today.
-GASP!- Only 3 months + before O level's arrival!
Oh gosh.
Okay, all the subjects are finishing up the chapters, and whats next will be intensive practise. O level is really nearing, yet I always have the feeling that I do not have enough practise!
Okay, im kind of sadistic recently. Every time teacher give us homework, I'll rejoice over it. And i'll be silently chanting that the teacher will give me more, GIVE ME MORE! It's the only way to feel relieve that i'm constantly having practise for the Os.
Call me paranoid, or call me being overly worried. Whatever it is, i'm going all out to score for Os. Yet, there's an element in me, that might act as a barrier which will hinder me to achieve my aims. Laziness. I hate it. I believe its a part of human's nature. But how do I overcome it? I dont know. I just had to constantly remind myself, to let me know that I just had to brace up, gear up, grind through these arduous months, and it's all for my future. It works, in some ways. ;X
Okay, I can also declared, that i'm, actually petrified of O level. Imagine I screwed up all the papers, what will happen? I'll gonna suffer, my future will immediately be dimmed. All the more, I shouldn't let that happen.
And I tend to imagine me, next year.
Where will I be? Is it in some JC of my dream, busy mugging for GP, for History, and stressing over homeworks?
Or will I be in a poly, going to school daily in fashionable clothings, attending lectures and rushing projects as well as doing presentations on my course?
Up till now, I still do not know where will I really land in.
Looks like, only Time will reveal, but I'll still strive for the best.

Alright, back to reality.
Normal lessons today. Had A-maths test. I tell you, Hong Kah's standard is GOOD okay?! The maths test on Applications of Integration and Kinematics is TOUGH! I got some feelings that I will do badly/flunk it.
Got back my History test on TOV (revision... ;P) and I scored 12/12~ First time in HISTORY. LOL! Then the rest of the lesson wents on smoothly, or maybe not. I'm starting to feel anxious for my Physics. The last chapter on Electromagnetism, I can't really understand it. Perhaps it got to do with electricity and magnets and such. I hate it. Speaking of which, i'll be dropping FE. I gonna heck care it. Will be asking my parents to pay the teacher/principal a visit to "discuss" about throwing away FE. What a f_ _king waste of time at ngee ann, not knowing anything. Shall not elaborate on it, had already a few posts to show how disgusted I am towards FE.
So yeah, hope that the term can be as smooth-sailing! Gotta learn some tactics on how to handle stress! I sucks at that!
Before I go off, I just gotta say...
I STILL CANT UPLOAD PHOTOS ON BLOGGER! DARN!
Bye!

10:54 PM


Sunday, July 5, 2009

Pool day again~

Yooo!
BLOGGER STILL CAN'T UPLOAD PHOTOS! --lll like, wth?
Anyway, back to post about yesterday.
Actually planned to go out yesterday, cos Sat is usually my leisure time, and I dont wanna waste it away by staying at home!
So i'm like asking around, asking people to go out. Kbox, pool, movie, bowling... but I just can't seem to be able to invite anyone out!
So yeah, tried to ask people again on saturday morning, and yay! Managed to ask kelvin, serene, huihui and ming yang. Unfortunately, ming yang hurt his feet and can't come to pool with us. Take care and recover soon! ;D
So I met hui and serene at Jurong Point's bus interchange and took bus 193 to Arena (at Tuas? ... sooo far ;X)
Went to the pool area and booked 1 table. Kelvin then joined us after we played our first game. Played pretty sucky for the first few rounds and only started to get the 'feel' back after we opened another table and I played with Hui.
Overall, lost to serene twice, won huihui twice, lost to kelvin once, and won kelvin once. LOL! Thats the tabulated score ;X
Then we took bus back to JP and we (except huihui cos she got to go home) went to subway to have our dinner!
Was about to buy Snackers from KFC after dinner at subway for my family but I queued for about 20 mins at the queue! Gosh, its like, HECK! Those who queued in front of me ordered food up to $50, and the guy at the counter is slowwwww! Then the guy in front of me, keep choosing and picking the chicken, and requesting for changes =.=
Got so fed up and gave the guy at the counter a impatient face when it's my turn, and he goes "Sorry sir! Sorry for the delay!"
LOL! Luckily his courteous, so never mind ;D
So yeah, took bus 187 and went home.
Pretty boring day with no drastic events taking place...
Im bored.
Homeworks still undone, A-maths test on area under curve and kinematics on Tuesday.
Let's hope that I'll suddenly have a adrenaline rush to study and complete my homeworks!
I need some sugar rush, seriously, mood is falling like a bottomless pit everyday.
Roar!
Bye.

7:19 PM


Thursday, July 2, 2009

MT O level Oral!
What a day today!
2nd July, MT O level Oral, Day 1.
We were dismissed at 1.15pm to have our lunch break, and we must report to hall by 1.45pm. When we report outside hall at 1.45pm, I dont know why, but anxiety suddenly engulfed me. Im telling myself a million, or even a trillion times to relax. I need to calm my nerves. But it failed! Its like, at 1 pm, im not even feeling nervous, instead I feel super excited cos i'm finally gonna take my O level chi oral! But the moment I saw the hall and everything, I started to get worried. Negative thoughts filled my mind.
What if I do badly? What if my brain got stuck during conversation? What if there are many words that I can't read? There is no retest, if I fail, what will happen?
Im feeling really pessimistic.
And then, we were brought to the hall and were seated down at the back. Im the 2nd from the last, and that sucks. As we wait for our turn, I started to feel extremely dizzy. Everything seems to spin round and round. I folded my arms and closed my eyes, hoping to ceased the giddy spells. But no, it got worse, even behind my eyelids, i can feel the ground revolving. All these while, I remained silence, but that's when I realise I got to do something, if not i'll really faint.
I started to get rid of my anxiousness and nervousness by talking to the peeps around me, starting to joke and even sing songs to lighten up my mood.
I gotta say, that HELPS A LOT! My giddy spells were gone, I started to feel better, my heart beat started to regulate and I calmed my nerves...
Then one by one, my friends had finished their oral. Some gave me a sour look, while some flashed me a thumb up.
Finally... ITS MY TURN!
I walked towards Mrs Er, and were timed for 5 mins, which is the time for me to read on the passage. So I read, and I grimaced. Indeed, many strong chinese words which I can't read. HECK! I just gotta anyhow replace it with other words that I deem fit. ;D
Then it's my turn and I walked to the 2 examiners.
I asked,"Good afternoon teachers" and flashed a smile. Damn hypocrite, trying to act as a super good boy ._.
Then I read the passage, some stutters and words read wrongly ._. but still quite smooth on the whole.
Conversation part, the one that I usually worried about. The question is indeed weird! The examiner asked me to share my views on whether the school should open the facilities to public on weekend? At that exact moment, I gave him the 'HUH?' look, but I forced my brain to work, force my brain to squeeze some answers out.
So out of desperation, I started by saying that it has good and bad point. For the good point, I said that the if we open to public, the citizens can easily get access to the facilities at the nearby school and the school might even build more facilities for the benefit of the students and the public. For the disadvantages, I said that allowing strangers in and out of the sch can pose some threat eg. theft, fights, trouble makers etc. Examiner then asked me if I think that the sch should charge money, and I said that if its like basketball court or soccer field, then its not necessarily to charge money, but if its those expensive facilities like comp lab or gym, then need to pay a minimal sum. Then, examiner asked if there is anything to add on, and I shouted YES merely because I dont wanna end too fast =.-
So I concluded by saying that sch shouldn't open facilities to public cos the student's safety is priority and it will invite more trouble if we open school to the public
Pretty weak arguments, but i only type in point form, on the actual conversation I blabbered a lot of rubbish...
So finally heaved a sigh of relief after the examination.

And, I HATE PIMPLE! Got a very big pimple that got rooted on my nose. Excruciating pain! So I tried to obliterate it by squeeeeezing it at home. Darn, pus and blood got squeezed out. PAINFUL! Hopefully it'll recover soon. The pimple is still there tho, but it got a LITTLE smaller ._. Argh! I look horrendous already, and the stupid gigantic pimples totally make me look like a idiot ._.

Okay, sorry for lengthy post!
and why cant I upload photos?! Weird!
Bye~

7:57 PM



Fundamental of electronics, SUCKS!
BOOOHOOO!
Yesterday had FE (fundamental of electronics) lesson after all my lessons in school. It sucks, suCK, SUCKS man! I abhor, detest, despise FE!
Actually yesterday plan to skip, but then Mr Wee is in charge, so no choice, have to go. Furthermore, there is bus provided... harder for me to escape, so had no choice but to be dragged to hell.
At Ngee Ann yesterday, we were seperated into our different class again, and that means I have to face my group's lecturer (which sucks). So okay, planned to do nothing cos I really dont know what to do, or rather, I dont know how to do. Im in such a confused state that I dont even know what question must I ask the lecturer.
Oh! I have to thank SANDRA! My FE shifu! LOL! She helped me to do up the circuit. It didnt work well, the output volume too soft, and when im trying to test my circuit, the lecturer were like messing up with my circuit when he help me to set up, and he fiddle with it for so long but unable to solve. Instead, he mess up my power amp. Luckily Sandra helped me to set-up, and at least it work although the volume is soft!
Haish, Im really NOT looking forward to every wed, because I dont ever want to see any circuit, breadboard, whatever FE shit again!
YUCKS!

7:41 PM